Inspired, Luminous Spirit

In one of his songs Israel Houghton sings, " ....No limits, no boundaries..."

So as I look into the mirror and look within those eyes that stare back at me I begin to wonder - Who am I really?

I know I am a soul, and i am more than that. I feel I have greatness within me. I do not believe in limits , not even the sky... I think I am greater than the sky, yet I have so many things I need to do, yet I am so afraid.

So I tap into Marianne Williamson's poetry and find some encouragement in Return to Love: Reflections on a Course in Miracles where she penned the popular Our Greatest Fear...

'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond imagination. It is our light more than our darkness which scares us. We ask ourselves – who are we to be brilliant, beautiful, talented, and fabulous. But honestly, who are you to not be so?
You are a child of God, small games do not work in this world. For those around us to feel peace, it is not example to make ourselves small. We were born to express the glory of god that lives in us. It is not in some of us, it is in all of us. While we allow our light to shine, we unconsciously give permission for others to do the same. When we liberate ourselves from our own fears, simply our presence may liberate others.’

Such powerful words... but what would prompt someone to write these words? Was she going through what I am going now, was she so afraid that she had to dig deep into her soul to find out who she was?

So I have a slight idea of who I am, i know I have potential... how much I do not know, maybe way too much and just the possibility that I might not be able to handle it gives me the jibbees.

I once worked with a certain woman , and we have since become good friends and she once said that I underestimate myself... could she have possibly had the forsight to see who I was if i operated at full potential?

My light scares me- why? Well as a young black woman , I've always been pounded by comments such as "no black person has ever done that" or "you will never be able to do it , you are a woman, or you are too young, or you do not have what it takes etc" At the end of the day I am led to believe that my brilliance, my beauty and my talent are never meant to be manifested.Or what if I fail..people will laugh and ridicule me. Forget about people my little mind tells me, they have always had an opinion- if they look at me as a failure I will not mind because I kno that it takes some courage to dip your feet in the water and it it takes wisdom to choose to learn from my mistakes, and it takes zeal for me to try again and have a better outcome. Then again what if I just stand bold and become the first to anything... is there anything wrong, those before me have been the firsts in many things and we celebrate them, so who am I not to let my light shine?

Why am I even afraid... I am a child of the Most High God. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. I walk by faith and by sight so while odds are against me and I feel intimidated I will arise above everything and be the light of the world, because greater is He that is in me than in the world. I am the salt of the earth, I was born to make an impact. I shall not be afraid, for the Lord is my Shepherd.

I have greatness in me and I choose not to have that to cause any fear in me, rather I will shine and be standard for others after me. I choose not to be defined by what people say or think of me - I will not let people who hardly know me define and carve who I am.When they look at me they will not look at me as a limit but they will know that they can be greater than me, because as Children of God we all have that special DNA of greatness in us. We serve a great God so how can we be nothing but great?